Endorphines Rule

[cassy_g]

So, yesterday was my 15th wedding anniversary, no pomp or circumstance.

astralfire did one of the nicest things he possibly could have done for me. He made me get up, get dressed, and go to Tai Chi. As my depression goes, I tend to withdraw and make excuses for not doing things and going out. Even when there's a good reason, like my anniversary, I knew, and astralfire knew I was using it to stay home. It's not like we celebrate with our anniversary, not more than maybe going out to dinner, and half the time, we just wait until the weekends anyway.

So, I went. And I am glad I did. As I have mentioned to a couple of people, even though I was sore and tired when I got home, I was definately feeling better afterwards.

My mother called last night, she said after talking to me this weekend she was worried about me. Now, most of you know that my mother worries about everything, except me. Well, that's not completely true. It use to be that way. The last couple of years she's really started to be more perceptive when it comes to the way I am feeling. She told me once, that me keeping everything inside use to drive her nuts, she never knew if I was happy or sad because I was so careful not to let people know what was going on with me. So, either she's more perceptive, or I am more open, in any case, she called after my class and she said she was glad I was sounding so much better than the last time she spoke to me.

So, I am going swimming after my son heads to school. And if I don't have to build a deck on Saturday I am going back to Tai Chi.

I want to thank my friends for their good advice yesterday. I think I just have to work harder this time of year to keep myself from falling into the all too familiar patterns of depression.

Comments

[fey-touched.livejournal.com]

1. I'm so glad you're feeling a bit better. Print out this entry, tape it to the wall so that you can look at it the next time you're trying to talk yourself out of going to Tai Chi. It does help!

2. Happy Anniversary!

[astralfire.livejournal.com]

Don't worry I will remind her next time. She can sometimes be like the first law of motion. "An object at rest tends to stay at rest and an object in motion tends to stay in motion with the same speed and in the same direction unless acted upon by an unbalanced force."

I don't mind poking her in the arm until she decides to move or make a decision to stay and try to wait me out. Maybe I can get her back to the point she felt she was at a few weeks ago when she decided to take a few big steps.

[dire-epiphany.livejournal.com]

Let me just say to you...

PLBTZ!

[dire-epiphany.livejournal.com]

LOL I think I might just do that...


THANKS! :D

[eugie.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you've been feeling depressed recently. That totally sucks and it's so hard to get out from under. But I'm very glad that you're trying to be proactive about it and forcing yourself (or letting astralfire force you) to go to Tai Chi. Hope you feel better soon.

And happy belated anniversary!

[dire-epiphany.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the warm thoughts and the encouragement.

I am definately feeling better since going to Tai Chi last night, and swimming today (post on that shortly).

Thanks so much!