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[cassy_g]

June 18th
Less than two weeks
To pack up 18 years
In plain brown boxes
As empty now
As my heart

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So, poetry isn't my strong suit.

I have to get moved, and unfortunately, I have to do it *now*. I am about to be slammed full force in the head by Dragon*Con, and hopefully a freelance website redesign project by the last week of June. I have to be settled in somewhere by then.

Unfortunately, it means I am going back to Columbus. I don't even know the address of the new house my parents bought. And I don't think they have a phone yet... I don't know alot.

I do know I have my back up against a wall and the building is crashing down on me.

Everyone keeps telling me I will be ok, that I will figure it all out.

I really hope you are all correct.

Comments

[fey-touched.livejournal.com]

I heard you got the Openings thing - congratulations!

I'm so sorry that you have to move back to Columbus. I pray it is only short term. What are you looking for as far as living arrangements so that I can keep an eye open? Is it dependent on employment or is it that you haven't found a place yet?

[dire-epiphany.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I am so excited about the Openings thing! And soooo happy that it starts AFTER DC! I am crossing my fingers over the other project, even though a part of me is scared TO get it because I am soooo busy over the summers usually.

It's going to be a year, minimum that I will be in Columbus. The reason being that with as much work as I have to do over the summer, and (hopefully) compounded by a website redesign, I can NOT imagine trying to move again in the middle of all of it. So, I would have to look at moving again in September at the earliest, and by then, Blake will be in school. As much as I hate Columbus and think their school system sucks, I think it would be far worse to move Blake in the middle of the school year. So, it will be next summer before I can look at coming back.

It is all sensitive dependent on me getting either a second job, or a full time first job that pays around $40k/year after taxes so that I can live on my own in Atlanta with no child support. Being self-reliant is very important to me for more than selfish reasons. If I have to depend on someone else to help me live, then I could be in this same position again - which I will not do.

If I manage to get a job up here before next summer, I will do one of two things, commute (it's really not any worse than sitting in traffic here), or go ahead and find a place that I can stay at during the week, maybe a small studio apartment, or something like that, and then go back to my parent's during the weekends. Personally, I will probably commute as I can't imagine not being there to help Blake with homework, etc every night.

Otherwise, the basic plan is, get the house sold, with as much out of it as possible (which is going to be at about $25-30k less than it SHOULD be worth), pay off ALL of my debts, bank the 2/5 I am keeping, put 1/5 in savings for Blake, and give the other 2/5s to David. Then, just save, save, save all the money I possibly can from what I make freelancing, etc so that when next summer gets here I will be in a good financial position.

I do actually know WHERE I want to live, but that's as before dependent on a job, and also where that job is located. I might look at renting a house next summer that is back in this school district so Blake can go back to the school and people he's familiar with, then move to an apartment/condo downtown when he graduates. Of course, that's kind of getting ahead of myself, isn't it?

Anyway, thank you again for helping me get these freelance gigs, I can't tell you how much it means to me that you would put such effort into helping me. :)

[rae-la-fai.livejournal.com]

I have no idea what you are going through. I can only say that it shows great strength and character on your part to be doing it. Goddess bless you and your son and keep you safe, healthy, happy, and prosperous over these life changes and what is surely the better things to come. Many heartfelt hugs your way.

[dire-epiphany.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much - I know you have been going through some very difficult times yourself. All I can say is that I am so sorry that I wasn't really there for you - and I really hope you are doing better now.

Thanks again for your compassion. *hugs*

[rae-la-fai.livejournal.com]

No apology neccessary it sounds like you have had your hands full. Again much love and hugs your way, and if I wasn't allergic to cats I am in love with Maggie :(

[dire-epiphany.livejournal.com]

I wish you weren't either! You would adore Maggie, she's a real love fest these days. Thank you though for the kindness. :)

[bevlovesbooks.livejournal.com]

*hus* I'm thinking of you, girl. Take care of yourself! Give me a holler if you want to talk.

[dire-epiphany.livejournal.com]

*hugs* thank you so much for your kindness. I know I am not being the most supportive senior director at the moment. I promise, I will get it together soon.

[bevlovesbooks.livejournal.com]

No prob. I hope to hear from you soon. Let me know how I can help.